Published Something Unfinished

 I accidentally published today a chapter that was a total mess. Not coherent. Not meant to be read. It looks like someone looked at it. A mistake post. Well I will do better in future. 

I just can't find the time to do that chapter really. I am writing it in dribs and drabs, small sections. How good can my writing ever be with that going on? Well it will be what it is. I'm just grateful to have an imaginative world to take me out of my real life, which has been full of painful flashbacks lately.  I keep seeing my newborn daughter's tiny face ...

I think maybe it's just a really difficult chapter to write and once I have done it, from then on it will flow, it will be all gallop writes like my "scenes" are.

I have thought, I'm a details freak, I always have been, that is just who I am. So it maybe that the best, the only good, bits of my novel are there amongst a lot of dryness. Yep. If I ever get to finish it. If it ever becomes a thing of balance and vitality that means it works.

At the moment I've had enough of writing this novel though. For this night, as of today, I'm doing other things. 

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